A Moment’s Calm
I live in my house as I live inside my skin: I know more beautiful,
more ample, more sturdy and more picturesque skins: but it would
seem to me unnatural to exchange them for mine.
–Primo Levi
Now for a moment’s calm. Maybe it will go on
and on, like a Strindberg play,
or it could be brief, shockingly brief, like a life.
Maybe I’ve been waiting my whole life for this.
What I call waiting is settling into a barn
with a ceiling fan to circulate the heated air,
wood beams from another century. In this stillness
I’m not disposed to making corrections.
I’m at peace with your happiness even if you’re gone,
even if we fought over which empire owns us,
whose soul is greater, Stravinsky
or Satchmo, or all things that matter less than that.
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Self-Portrait with Bill Evans at the Vanguard
It takes a few notes, a very few notes, to undo the bare bones of a person. Where formerly we were piecework in a garment factory, we’re now a cache of minor keys: some cerulean, some midnight blue, a few redacted, Re: The Person We Knew: 1961 at the Village Vanguard. Hegel holds that the soul is the form, the essence of any living thing; it is not a substance separate from the body that holds it; the possession of soul turns an organism into an organism; a body without a soul is merely a soul in the wrong body. Our repetitions, our disguises, those cloudy sequences where we’re adrift, will bring us to a neighborhood where tulips are sold, where this season’s dresses rattle down the street on steel racks. To a basement café where his spare melody stitches us together.
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From Country, Living by Ira Sadoff, Alice James Books, 2020.
