Claire Vaye Watkins on Grief in the Desert

“I was taking a postpartum questionnaire as part of my postpartum medical treatment and I was confronted with how inadequate the discipline of medicine was to addressing what was happening to me. Like: Something is really happening to me. I wouldn’t say I’m having postpartum depression, I would say that I’m like … having visions. Or that my true self is exploding forward.”

Jordan sits down with Claire Vaye Watkins to talk about how the grief over her mother’s death diffused into a homesickness for the landscape of the Mojave Desert, where she grew up, and the way that that singular landscape then formed her own writing style, which the New Yorker dubbed “Nevada Gothic.” They also talk about postpartum depression, Watkins’ autofiction novel I Love You But I’ve Chosen Darkness, and hauntings.

Claire Vaye Watkins was one of the National Book Foundation’s “5 Under 35” and one of Granta’s “Best Young American Novelists.” She is the author of I Love You But I’ve Chosen Darkness, Gold Fame Citrus and Battleborn, which won the Story Prize, the Dylan Thomas Prize, New York Public Library’s Young Lions Fiction Award, the Rosenthal Family Foundation Award from the American Academy of Arts and Letters, and a Silver Pen Award from the Nevada Writers Hall of Fame. A Guggenheim Fellow, Watkins is also the co-director of the Mojave School, a free creative writing workshop for teenagers in rural Nevada.