A Story by Laura van den Berg in Response to the Art of Ria Patricia Röder

In the summer of my failure, I discovered new ways to pass time. Norwegian Slow TV, for one. A woman knitting. The nine-hour train voyage between Trondheim and Bodø, through the frozen heart of winter. Or, Bergen to Oslo—a gradual passage from snow and stark trees to blond fields with red barns to pitch-dark tunnels. If you watched the platforms carefully you might see a woman pivot from the edge, her skirt flaring; a man in a cap reading a newspaper on a bench, the child beside him staring out and out. The arcless arc of a human moment.

That summer, sleep was among the many things I was failing at, so a psychiatrist friend suggested afternoon walks in the woods, armed with headphones and ASMR recordings; he said this activity was good for settling the nerves. The recordings were hushed and repetitive—a fingernail tapping a wall, unintelligible whispering, the combing of hair. I found a whole world of ASMR celebrities online, waiting to entrance people like me. My favorite was Dmitri, and I wasn’t alone: he had 1.5 million YouTube followers. Despite his popularity, I couldn’t find any photos of him online, just sounds. His specialty was stroking a bedspread, the rhythm amplified to sound like the ocean. At a different time, I might have found walking alone in the woods to the sound of a strange man stroking a bedspread creepy, but at that moment in my life I felt there was nothing left for me to be afraid of.

On occasion, I came upon strange things in the woods. A bucket of plastic oranges. A headless doll. The carcass of a small animal, a raccoon or a cat, the ribs picked clean and arranged in the shape of a blossom. A white granite statue laid out under a tree, the kind you might expect to find in a churchyard or a cemetery. That afternoon, I paused my recording and peered down at the robed figure, to see if I recognized the face, but someone had hacked away at the stone eyes and the nose and the mouth—the figure could have been some famous apostle and no one would have been able to tell.

Menina, 21.7 x 15.8 in, scanogram © Ria Patricia Röder

“How do we end up where we do?” I asked the broken stone face. “What does any of this mean?” In the summer of my failure, I often felt bewildered by the shape my days took, the hours guided by Dmitri and Norwegian Slow TV; I only spoke to other human beings when I went to the post office and the grocery store.

I wasn’t expecting an answer, not from a defaced statue in the woods. I was starting to walk away when I felt a wind at my back and I heard a voice say, “The worst has not come yet. You must prepare. But neither has the best. You must prepare for that, too.”

I turned and saw that the statue was sitting upright and pointing a broken finger at me. I screamed and stumbled backwards, my headphones flapping around my neck; when I got back to the cabin I was renting, I locked the door behind me, pulled shut the floral drapes. If a statue could sit up who was to say that it could not rise and walk? I stayed up all night, watching the train chug from Trondheim and Bodø and listening to Dmitri pet the bedspread. I wondered how he passed the time while he was recording these strange missives, or if he was so focused on the matter at hand that time passed itself.

I had never been to Norway before, though that fact about myself would one day change. Seven years after that summer of failure, I spent a week in Oslo for work. I rode a train to Bergen and took a funicular deep into a forest and avoided religious statues, as I would for the rest of my life, and listened for the name Dmitri because I still longed to see his face.

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Excerpted from Ria Patricia Röder – #chainofaction, an artbook featuring an experimental dialog between word and image, by permission of Revolver Publishing Berlin. © 2019 by Ria Patricia Röder and Laura van den Berg.