Queer History Detective: On the Power of Uncovering Stories from the Past

I could not find any evidence of Mary’s life outside the pages of her book until I met with queer historian and author Hugh Ryan for coffee one Saturday morning. (Cue dramatic music.) Ryan, the author of When Brooklyn Was Queer, explained to me that Mary had left no trail because her name wasn’t Mary at all. He sent me off with a masters dissertation by Sherry A. Darling, a history detective in her own right, who had used clues about where “Mary” lived and who her neighbors were to hunt down the property records that would reveal her legal name: Ruth Fuller Field.

That fact I had taken as indisputable, that a woman named Mary Casal had penned one of the first American accounts of sexual and romantic love among women, was entirely fabricated. Ruth might have picked that pen name, as Darling pointed out, because “Casal” meant “a married couple; a pair, male and female,” representing her own twinned nature, an identity that ran deeper than her Gemini star sign.

Darling also helped identify, albeit indirectly, why queer history requires such careful attention and detection. By the time Ruth—or rather, Mary, as I will always think of her, a character invented not only to mask her identity but also, perhaps, to shield her vulnerabilities—sat down to write her memoir, she was “the last one of all that large family left.” She had no children, no estate, and by that time, Juno was gone too. There was no one around to inherit her records.

At first I imagined that Mary had written her memoir out of some instinct to preserve, to make sure that no one else was sentenced to a life thinking they were “the only girl with such a nature.” That was another fiction. Mary wrote her memoir at the behest of two amateur sexologists, men who took advantage of the free publicity generated by obscenity laws to publish and sell books about sexuality.

“The ‘Lesbian’ manuscript I told you about has come in,” one wrote to his business partner. “It is not a great manuscript all the way through.”

I haven’t been able to get my hands on that original manuscript. All that is left for me to read is the published book, the version their hands marked invisibly and irreversibly when they edited Mary’s words, yet another force that obscures queer history. Many queer stories have been filtered through the lens by those who had the power to keep records, whether that’s two amateur sexologists or a journalist reporting on a recent arrest or a police officer filling out an intake form. The queer history detective must identify those filters and remove as many of them as possible to get closer to the original subject.

More details unfolded from Darling’s revelation. Ruth was born in Deerfield, Massachusetts. Her beloved was named Emma. Both had worked as secretaries for the philanthropist Helen Gould. I latched onto Helen because she was someone with the resources and name recognition to have her records preserved.

Cut to me biking to the New-York Historical Society on the Upper East Side, fingers rosy with the January cold, to comb through her letters and photographs and other papers, many of them detailing the humdrum business of making donations and maintaining a robust social calendar. The secretaries left little notes in pencil at the top of Helen’s correspondence to note when each was read and replied to. Were any of those lines left by Ruth, who would later become my Mary? I searched for some intimate trace of her, something that was mine alone.

Even after all this searching, there were still so many questions about Mary that remained unanswered: Where was the patent for the toy she invented, the one made out of paper that had brought her to New York, to Juno? What name did she file it under? Mary? Ruth? A made-up man’s name? Were any photos of her still in existence? Could there be one in the yearbook of the high school where she taught? Did the book’s original dust jacket carry an author photo? Where did the name Stone Wall actually come from? Were the memoir and the bar named after some feature in the West Village that no longer stands? Who was Bonnie?

What I did have, though, was a portrait of queer life at the turn of the century. Shortly after Mary was born, female seminaries began to receive the collegiate charters they needed to become full-fledged colleges, starting with Mount Holyoke, which was quickly followed by Vassar and Wellesley.

White, upper middle-class women could now spend time away from their families, carving out a new chapter between living under the watchful eyes of their fathers and moving in with a husband, and, more importantly, time with each other. Some struck up relationships, and others even continued those relationships after they graduated, often called Boston Marriages.

I want to know what others can uncover about Mary, yes, but also about other unsung queer heroes and role models of history. With more queer history detectives, what could our future look like?

Other queer women weren’t lucky enough to fly under the radar. Local daily newspapers were rapidly expanding both in circulation and influence, and stories about “female husbands” who were outed either by scorned lovers or concerned community members and then often arrested made easy fodder to fill their pages. Jen Manion has put together a fantastic scholarly study, Female Husbands: A Trans History, exploring how these early pioneers transed gender and crossed the binary, even before they had the language for it that we have available today. These headlines unfortunately helped feed the medicalization of queerness as something to be studied that was on the rise toward the end of Mary’s life.

Cut to: Me at the New York Historical Society, still sifting through papers, texting my dad to get help deciphering the cursive handwriting of those long deceased. There was a letter about a refrigerator being shipped cross-country. An epistolary argument about whether to feed children sandwiches while they listen to Biblical readings. A speech Helen Gould was to give to the soldiers on Christmas. Wait. There. On the reverse side of the speech. Legible handwriting, in pencil, signed R.F. Field. Ruth Fuller Field. This wasn’t an answer I was looking for, but it was something to grasp between my hands.

I promised myself one last road trip before I said goodbye to Mary. My girlfriend (I had found her, too, somewhere along the way) drove me to New Haven, where Yale’s Beinecke Rare Book & Manuscript Library holds an original edition of The Stone Wall. The building’s security is stricter than TSA. Once inside, the librarians let me open their copy of Mary’s memoir, with the spine resting on a pillow to protect it from further wear and tear, and a weighted string to hold the pages open.

I immediately flipped to the back flap. No author photo. Maybe it was on the back jacket. I gingerly turned the book over. Still, no photo. There was, though, a line of descriptive copy that made me smile: “a fascinating tale of romance in which no man figures.”

Part of me still hasn’t given up on uncovering answers to these questions. What’s for certain is that each new discovery will only bring more questions. That said, I did have a deadline for piecing together Mary’s story because it was slated to be the opening chapter in my debut book, a personal exploration of lesbian history through seven intimate, real life love stories spanning the twentieth century (eight, if you count my own): Lesbian Love Story: A Memoir in Archives.

Even though the book has already been printed, I still hear the siren song of queers I wish I could have included. I find myself reading entire books about Shakespearean actor Charlotte Cushman, who played Romeo himself during the Victorian era, and turn of the century photographer Alice Austen, who captured the cross-dressing parties she hosted at her Staten Island Home and co-founded the Staten Island Bicycle Club because bicycles offered women independent transportation.

There’s Sara Josephine Baker, introduced to me by a friend, a contemporary of Alice’s who worked as a physician and public health advocate in New York City and spent her later years with a “woman-oriented woman,” not to be confused with the queer Harlem Renaissance chorine turned movie star Josephine Baker. Surely there’s room to add an entire chapter about Rusty Mae Moore and Chelsea Goodwin, founders of Transy House, a 1990s refuge for unhoused gender non-conforming people and the last place where queer liberation pioneer Sylvia Rivera lived.

I could start a franchise in the style of The Fast and the Furious. I could call the sequel Lesbian Stories 2 Love.

What I really want, though, are more queer history detectives. Someone to read this piece and write in with answers to these lingering questions, with corrections to facts I had taken as verified truth. I daydream that a legion of teenagers on Tumblr will attack these mysteries with the same appetite that they usually reserve for creating a relationship timeline for unverified celebrity couples. Mary and Juno will take their places alongside Larry and Gaylor.

I want to know what others can uncover about Mary, yes, but also about other unsung queer heroes and role models of history. With more queer history detectives, what could our future look like?

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Lesbian Love Story: A Memoir in Archives by Amelia Possanza is available via Catapult.